For a few days till now I am hurting myself deeply inside when happy outside. A lot of thing I think and feel. What should I think, what should feel or what should I do.
Dilemma. Very in dilemma.
If I write it down, you will never understand.
My brain like a unsolved maze game.
Also my feeling are so hurt and heavy.
It is very heavy and pain, when I don’t know what should I do and what I should feel. I am scared for the outcome, if I do for what I feel and think.